i constantly daydream....

Happy New Year 2011

2011-01-05T12:34:00.002+08:00

hey you!

2010-01-29T02:22:00.002+08:00

you!!
yes you, i'm not talking to anyone else.. i'm talking to u right now.
i know u've been reading my blog
text me will ya?

p/s: i miss u

2009

2009-12-28T18:38:00.003+08:00

the year 2009 puts a very big impact on me.
i met new friends,
new experiences,
new places.

and most importantly,
all of them are purely priceless.

some of them were great
some are not

some i regretted,
some i remembered.

and the most important thing,
i learn and grow through all the joy and also pain.

i guess this will be my last entry for this year as i'll be leaving to koh samui tomorrow morning.
i hope that this trip will help me to set things right.

Penang Bridge Half Marathon

2009-11-17T00:32:00.003+08:00

october 09

2009-10-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

karma.

2009-09-25T18:57:00.003+08:00

do u believe in karma? actually i do..
they are actually a very simple equation of causes and effects.
"what u give, u get back"

sometimes i think that it is better to keep your mouth shut and stop talking about other people's business as you don't want people to talk about you too, right?

simple as it may seems.
stop talking about other people
stop doing bad things to other people
give as much as you can
help them,
respect them,
know that they have feelings too even they aren't pretty or rich

and one last thing,
forgive, but not forget.

september will end soon, and yet, i still can't make up my mind on some things.
faith again, i'll leave it to you.

bila rasaku ini rasamu.

2009-09-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

faces.

2009-08-22T11:29:00.002+08:00

antonyms.

2009-08-21T15:52:00.007+08:00

there were times when we think we are at the top of the world and we forget about our responsibilities.
there were times when we were too sad and no one were there for us to cheer us up.
there were times when we were too tired but we couldn't sleep.
there were times when we were too hungry but we couldn't eat.

life is so cruel and unfair, isn't it?

supposed to be.

2009-08-13T16:50:00.003+08:00

Maybe it's up with the stars
Maybe it's under the sea
Maybe it's not very far
Maybe this is how it's supposed to be
This is how it's supposed to be
Maybe it's trapped in a jar
Something we've already seen
Maybe it's nowhere at all
Maybe this is how it's supposed to be
This is how it's supposed to be
Looking forward as we rewind
Looking back is a trap sometimes
Being here is so easy to do
If you want to

plain stupid.

2009-08-07T12:44:00.004+08:00

when is the only time that i don't have to make decisions and just leave it to fate?
am i just plain stupid that i can't stand up and make decisions for myself?

selfish? maybe i am.

can i just run away from everything and come back when people has already forget about my existence?
or maybe i shouldn't come back at all.

truth always hurts.

i miss bali

time in bali was the only time that i can leave everything i dislike behind me.

:(

nelly's pelangi

2009-08-02T11:53:00.002+08:00

i envy u.

the letter J.

2009-06-29T00:53:00.011+08:00

Josh Groban

Jakob Dylan

James Morrison

Jude Law

Jonathan Rhys Myers

Joshua Scott "JC" Chasez

John Doe

these people brought happiness in my life.

something good this way comes.

2009-06-23T14:34:00.003+08:00

life has been treating me well lately.
love and being loved from everyone around me.
i feel blessed day by day thinking that there are certain people who cares bout me and cherish our friendship.

here's a big smile from me to all of u

great place, great people and great food.

2009-06-07T19:13:00.005+08:00

he took my heart away.

2009-06-03T23:20:00.010+08:00

i'm always a huge fan of wallflowers' songs but i'm not a fan of the members haha

until..

i googled wallflowers today and i was tremendously shocked to see the lead singer, Jakob Dylan is actually so 'gorgeous?'!! (can't think of any better word to describe him yet)

I was so blown away by how good looking he is.

and u'll definitely guess that he is somewhat somehow related to Bob Dylan right?

yes he is.

He is actually son of the legendary singer-songwriter Bob Dylan.

and i browse through some of his pictures and my heart melted so rapidly.

it was just like love at first sight.

omg.

i know.

please kill me.

my all time favourite song;

melawi beach.

2009-05-30T22:08:00.001+08:00

signature pose.

2009-05-26T13:15:00.005+08:00

spot the similarities.

deep and meaningless

2009-05-18T04:21:00.002+08:00

Rooster - Deep And Meaningless

happy birthday mom.

2009-05-15T12:05:00.002+08:00

dear mom,

i know i have not been the obedient daughter you ought for;

a daughter who listens to everything you say,

a daughter who does not argue with you,

a daughter who does not have issues on everything,

a daughter who will tidy up her room, wash the dishes,

a daughter who writes poems better than this,

i know mom,

my poem sucks. ( this isn't even a poem, i think)

but this is how i'm showing my love for you on this special day of yours.

i love you mom.

deeply.

sister's crave for meena curry rice

2009-05-14T12:38:00.002+08:00

my 2nd sis.

my third sis.

my status *evil grin*

ngeh ngeh ngeh

hope.

2009-05-13T13:08:00.005+08:00

To love is to risk not being loved in return.

To hope is to risk pain.

To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

gomo kelate gomo!

2009-04-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

since i have nothing else to do for this loooooooooooong holiday, i'm not stating a metaphore here, i do really meant long (31stmarch till 31st july) well, judge yourselves.

so i think i'm gonna blog more frequent than before (fingers crossed) since i do have a 3G modem for my laptop.

i bought this modem in PC fair in KLCC which costs me 299bucks and another 68 bucks monthly of subscribing celcom broadband *bye bye passport n bye bye phuket bungee trip :(*

exam season pure madness

2009-03-21T14:12:00.003+08:00

how to mend a broken heart.

2009-03-07T22:21:00.001+08:00

suke ati aku la!

2009-03-05T22:58:00.004+08:00

8.00 am

DE class. ko paham ke Laplace Transform tu?

9.00 am

Dynamics. Encik Syukri tgh mengajar depan, ko tgh study surveying tu pe hal?

10.00 am

u slalu makan sorang2 ke? jom la join kitorang skali..

11.00 am

eh lame tak nampak ko dtg lab geo ni.. eh bile mase pulak aku ponteng??

2.00 pm

kawan: wei thing, ko kat mane? jom study..

me : aku nk keluarlah!

kawan: care ah ko, dh tanak join kitorang dh ek..

6.41 pm

san: i'm comin now. will pick u up from the bus stop

me : ok!

11.00 pm

aku belum study ape2 lagi untuk surveying test esok.

ok, sekian terima kasih.

sophomore part 1

2009-03-05T13:39:00.007+08:00

finishing part 1 in one month

06/03/09 surveying Test 2

13/03/09 surveying Test 2

13/03/09 dynamics Test 2

16/03/09 geology project presentation

17/03/09 geology lab test 2

18/03/09 submission of surveying report no. 4

19/03/09 submission of dynamics project n quiz 5

24/03/09 differential equation final exam

26/03/09 dynamics final exam

29/03/09 surveying final exam

30/03/09 geology final exam

31/03/09 moral studies final exam

04/04/09 submission of moral studies project

*tick tock*

am i gonna drown?

cny to remember.

2009-02-17T20:49:00.004+08:00

1st day of cny

-aunt chu hong's place

-late uncle chu ho's place

2nd day of cny

-family slumber party with sisters, brother, aiden n hailey

3rd day

-another slumber party session

"weh duk mano? aku puwah jom tubik.."

my first time on dad's newly bought black Innova.

reached my destination.

3 missed calls

1. dad

2. hui yee

3. hung

eh?? whats with the missed calls?

called dad..

me: pa, u called?

dad: girl, where r u? come back now, uncle's been in an accident.

i wasn't feeling good that time

hope it will be just a small accident with minor injuries

*i prayed*

reached Perdana Specialist

cousins, uncles, n other relatives were there

blood all over on the floor

could it be that bad?

*speechless*

what?!?

no doctor on duty in a private hospital?

cousin : we need to move him to HUSM immediately

nurse : adik, siapa kat sini relative die? bayaran bleh buat kat counter ye?? jumlah semua RM500++

me : huh? urm.. ok..

the next day,

uncle was admitted into ICU

his face covered up, swollen

hands, swollen, fractured

following days,

still unconscious

1st Feb 2009,

about 12.00++ am

dad's phone rang

me n sis looked at each other speechlessly

no one will call dad this hour unless theres something very important

door opened

dad: we need to go to the hospital! uncle is not doing good

in the car

everyone was speechless

dad : why is this happenning?? why??

at the hospital

cousins crying

aunts n uncles sobbed softly

cousin: pray for uncle, please..

.......

cousin : uncle is not longer with us anymore

cousin : girl, why is this happening to pa...?

me speechless

beaches & islands

2009-01-07T19:10:00.001+08:00

happy 2009.

2009-01-04T18:59:00.004+08:00

depression signs and symptoms

2008-11-28T01:48:00.005+08:00

Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness
A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation. (checked)

Loss of interest in dailly activities
No interest in or ability to enjoy former hobbies, pastimes, social activities. (checked)

Appetite or weight changes
Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month. (checked)

Sleep changes
Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia). (checked)

Psychomotor agitation or retardation
Either feeling “keyed up” and restless or sluggish and physically slowed down. (checked)

Loss of energy
Feeling fatigued and physically drained. Even small tasks are exhausting or take longer. (checked)

Self-loathing
Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. Harsh criticism of perceived faults and mistakes. (checked)

Concentration problems
Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things. (checked)

*sigh*
nite..

Budak Kelantan

2008-11-17T01:02:00.004+08:00

finally.. i'm back to the blogging world again after a exhausting month of october with tonnes of assignments and end semester exams..

and for your info.. im now at kelantan! bestest place to be for holiday cause its my hometown.

a new movie bout kelantanese is currently playing in cinemas.

and i think the title 'Budak Kelantan' is a bit ironic because the title itself portrays what will u expect from kelantanese and they are all the same.

anyhow, i dont care what people talks about kelantanese.. i'm proud to be kelantanese as well as my hometown. i was born, raised, educated.. all the memories..

budak kelantan

*to watch or not to watch this movie... hmmm.. its not that i'm being not supportive its just that i think paying rm10 for malay movies in cinema is a bit expensive ha ha ha.. i'll just wait for the movie to be played in tv. or i'll just download it from the intranet. :)

Perhentian Island Challenge 2008

2008-10-23T13:27:00.001+08:00

happy eid mubarak

2008-10-01T18:09:00.002+08:00

selamat hari raya to all my muslim friends.. surprisingly i didn't go out at all on first day of raya.. what the hell, yeah.. what the hell.. staying at home lazying in front of tv is much better..

ketupat that i've missed this year.. no this is not ketupat? ah i dont know..

i'm pathetic.

2008-09-29T01:10:00.001+08:00

to you,

yes you..

go on and make me an optional

and smile like you really mean it..

terrible, very terrible nite..

2008-09-26T21:33:00.002+08:00

had the worst night ever in uni.. i lost 2 atm cards at jusco balakong and had sleepless night thinking bout them over and over again.. till i went asleep about 5 something in the morning till i realized i've touched something under my bed with my foot which i remembered there was nothing under my bed because i tidied up my room before i went out.. i remembered i saw some 'figure' with cat eyes and i freaked out and went into tears.... oh god.. what are all these? was i dreaming or it really happened? i don't know.. i'm clueless.. my friends told me not to worry cause this is the month of ramadhan.. i hope so and convinced myself not to worry bout anything.. mom told me not to worry and scare myself too.. maybe i was too restless..

i'm all alone tonight in uni.. housemates gone.. how can i sleep tonight thinking that nobody is here? god.., give me faith and courage for this night..

:(

happy mid autumn.

2008-09-15T03:01:00.001+08:00

melts

2008-09-04T00:58:00.003+08:00

GAP Autumn/Winter 2008/2009 collection

hugh dancy *melts*

Clark Mallon *drooling* hehe

off to bed now.. class starts at 9.. i bet i'm gonna sleep like a pig cause i had KFC's toasted twister and 2 hot guys for the night..

Please Listen.

2008-09-02T11:18:00.004+08:00

When i ask you to listen to me and you start giving me advice,
you have not done what i asked.

When i ask you to listen to me and you begin to tell me why i shouldn't feel that way,
you are trampling on my feelings.

When i ask you to listen to me and you fell you have to do something to solve my problem,
you have failed me, strange as that may seem.

Listen! All I ask that you listen.
Don't talk or do - just hear me.

Advice is cheap; just an email or a stamp and envelope will get you Big Bro or Dear Wilma in the newspaper, and i can do for myself;
I am not helpless.
Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless.

When you do something for me that I can and need to do for myself,
you contribute to my fear and inadequacy.
But when you accept as a simple fact that i feel what i feel, no matter how irrational,
then i can stop crying and convince you and get about this business of understanding what's behind this irrational feeling.

And when that's clear, the answers are obvious and i DON'T need advice.
Irrational feelings make sense when we understand what's behind them.

Perhaps that's why prayer works, sometimes, for some people,
because God is mute, and he doesn't give advice or try to fix things.
God just listens and lets you work it out for yourself.

So please listen, and just hear me.
And if you want to talk, wait a minute for your turn - and i will listen to you.

*aku tuju entry ni kepada sape2 yg bace blog aku.. bukan mudah untuk kite untuk mendengar sahaja luahan hati seseorang tanpa memberi sebarang nasihat dan hanya mendengar, tapi.. kita mampu untuk berbuat demikian..
dengar.. dan terus mendengar..

tagged versi melayu

2008-08-30T20:15:00.006+08:00

first tagged from cik nadeera abu bakar
tk perasan pun die tag aku..

kali pertama naik kapal terbang..
lupe la.. kindergarten kot.. pegi kl jln2 rumah cousin..

kali pertama ke oversea..
over the river byk kali la.. pegi golok (sempadan Kelantan-Thailand)

Kali pertama duduk berjauhan dengan keluarga...
mase upper 6.. duduk kat banglow dekat skolah dgn kawan2.. but my parents will come and send me drinking water from home daily.. aku bukan anak manje k cume aku tk minum air paip yg dimasak..

Ingin melancong ke...
UK
Bali
Dubai
dan lain2 tempt yg belum dikunjungi.. i've always dreamt of travelling around the world one day..

Favourite accessories...
- rantai aku yg berbentuk cermin mate (stylo tak?)
- watch
- currently, headbands.

4 perkataan yang selalu disebut..
- ok
- kot
- ohhhhh (perkataan ke ni??)
- hmmmmm

Kalau ade duit berjuta juta juta...
-aku nk invest duit tu biar dapat interest.. tp mesti kena tax kan.. biase laa.. malaysia punye government macam babi je (ops)
- aku nk melanconggggg
- aku nk beli SLR yg plg gempak di dunia
- aku nk bagi kat parents (tk baik tk tulis ni... tak berkat nanti.. hehe bukan terpaksa, tp aku betul2 nak bagi lah!)
- aku nk beli berjuta2 ekor sea monkeys sbb nk tebus yg dh mati tu..

Siapakah yang akan anda tag?
sape ha...
1. pjoe
2. jonathan
3. ong hui yee
4. tan yun yi

wow.. baru perasan rupe2nya kawan2 seblog aku tk ramai rupenya sampai tk tau nk tag sape..

hujan di puchong

2008-08-30T16:07:00.003+08:00

hujan lagi?

rain, rain go away,
come again another day..

current location : puteri 12, puchong
time: 4.09 pm
mood: sleepy n nak balik buat report, and bengang!

why bengang?
for some unknown reason.. i keep on playing james morrison - the last goodbye
and this is what he said/sang:
"and i've grown tired of being used, and i'm sick and tired of being accused."

mid semester break

2008-08-27T16:21:00.005+08:00

hey people.. back in uni after 10 days break.. i just hate this place so much but yet i still have to be here for another 3 yrs.. argh..
mid semester break was fun.. spent most of the time at home fighting with aiden and he hates me badly now.. haha..

here are some photos of our little 'zainabian and ismaillian' reunion

the sic guys.. kai yi, deep, kishore

the happy faces of zainab.. athtirah, aimi, gowri

two happy people

we'll be forever good friends.. gowri + cynthia + me

viva la zainabian.. cynthia + me + gowri + chui lian

it was fun having you guys around during my break.. hope to see u guys again anytime soon..
xoxo

spring clean on spring break..

2008-08-13T16:55:00.004+08:00

wahhhh... amazed with my tidy room and closet? don't be cause it'll only last a few days.. seriously.. haha.. mom's gonna be so proud of me.. hehe.. i fold my blanky everyday k..
i'm going home tomorrow nite for ten days!! yeah ten days!!

i even hang my labcoat in my closet.. hehe.. amazed? don't be.. its just an illusion.. *teehee*

aiden n baby hailey.. here i come..

arse face.

2008-08-09T05:14:00.000+08:00

bahhh!! shhhooohhh!!

go away and leave me alone!

Lomography.

2008-08-08T18:47:00.007+08:00

scream.

2008-08-05T02:17:00.006+08:00

wtf wtf wtf wtf!!

arghhhh!!! *screaming out loud*

i wanna scream!

let me scream!

anyway,

thanks guys(jen, syafiq, ijad and azri) for the late birthday celebration.

horoscope reading.

2008-08-02T12:06:00.009+08:00

cancer ( jun22-jul23)
You can't have everything going your way all the time. Pleasure and pain go hand in hand. All will be ok, relax and don't get uptight..

hmmmmmm....
*sigh*

:(

sea monkeys.

2008-07-30T17:07:00.003+08:00

finally! i've been wanted to buy these creatures since i was in secondary school.. back then i was short of money which means i solely rely on my pocket money which was not that much.. but enough to spend on snacks and candies. we don't spend on topups k since handphones were not in our dictionary yet that time.. u kids are real lucky to have extra pocket money for handphones and topups these days..

well, after 20 hours of 1st step, which is purifying, still need another 4 hours to add my Sea-Monkeys egg.

my Sea-Monkey aquarium

i'll update u guys again tonight after adding the eggs k.. off to tennis first..

waroeng penyet.

2008-07-28T19:44:00.010+08:00

tired. the only word that i can say for today.. kawe letih weii.. thanks to late night stay ups and last minute work.. i hate last minute work yet i still do it.. apa la lu ting tong..

last weekend was real fun, had indonesian food with my sisters at waroeng penyet, ikano. the food was ok2 only la cause the food was quite similar to SUNAN DRAJAT in kajang that i went before..

and..
please look carefully what is on ping's pc table..
yea yea i know..
u must be wondering why is there a dick on her table ya?
it was a gift from her friend that went to bali for vacation..
cool stuff huh?

and to class today, my new polka dots shirt.. i just loveeeeee polka dots..

alright.. mandi time.. i'm F*CKING sleepy and tired.

aku tension!!

2008-07-26T22:40:00.002+08:00

aarrrrghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

i share the same birthday with chace crawford (nate archibald)???

2008-07-26T09:00:00.004+08:00

woke up early and clicked on gossip girl insider early in the morning to check out the upcoming 2nd season and guess what..

as i scrolled down and down..

"happy 23rd birthday chace crawford on the 18th July.." which is the same date as mine..!! yipppeeee!!

he is so hot hot hot!! *sizzlessss*

he's even hotter without his shirts on.. ngehehe *melts*

p/s: nel, jangan jealous.. ;P

attention-whore

2008-07-25T17:43:00.005+08:00

learnt a new term from encik pjoe tep.. attention whore a.k.a pelacur perhatian (direct translation la..) haha.. enjoy...

*click on the pic for a clearer view

monopoly + tennis + class

2008-07-25T00:04:00.027+08:00

had a fun and tiring week.. tennis, monopoly, classes, lab reports.. kept me busy all week and indirectly lowered down my high stress level.. ha ha.. UNITEN IS SO FUCKED UP!! no in and out from 12 to 5?? gila ka?? means that no more late night show for me? no more late night mamaks? curfew curfew curfew.. even staying at home is thousand times better than uni..

u suck hard uniten! u suck more than i do!

enough of uni..

that afternoon..

trip to primary school, yantty need to certify some documents for mara scholarship..

very motivative mural i notice in a primary school at sg. merab luar, kajang

jika seratus yang berjaya, akulah diantaranya.
jika sepuluh, akulah yang pertama.

andainya satu sahaja, akulah orangnya.

that evening,

tennis with idham n daus..

and me camwhoring at the court?? ha ha

later after tennis,
off to dinner..

2nd edition of camwhoring (nk pegi dinner la ni.. dgn keadaan tk mandi) ngehehe..

and guess what is after dinner..

monopoly!! yeahh

secret message that says "get out of jail free"

then...

class today..

sleepy + bored

nk tgk tk sy camwhore dlm class malay language?? ha ha ha

just want to show of my latest favourite outfit

green cardi + golden crossover bag

perasan cun la tu..

so.. have fun y'all with my post for today..

i have lab reports to finish that need to submit this coming monday

p/s: nedd, gi eurotrip tu jange tok ingat ko aku deh.. i want souvenirs! i dont care! nk ikut!!!!

after so long..

2008-07-23T02:35:00.008+08:00

finally, i'm going to update my blog after so long.. i'm not busy but i'm lazy.. hehe

well i'm going to tell u one by one things that happened to me from me birthday 18th july till today, the 22nd..

bday eve was quite sad to me cause he's not here to celebrate with.. all i want is just a cake and candles.. its been quite a while i didnt blow those candles (pathetic huh??)

but i do went out with a bunch of friends from kliuc for dark knight.. it was a blast, everything bout the joker was really2 great till i nearly cried.. heath ledger will be forever remembered by me..

heath ledger

finally, after so long i'm gonna meet nel, my bestest friend ever nel, on my birthday.. went for shopping at sogo, then to midvalley.. daus came along cause he promised my birthday treat .. we wanted to have dinner at chilis but we have to wait for 10 minutes for our table and we couldn't wait cause 3 of us were really hungry and we moved to sushi king instead.. the food was ok and nel was really excited cause she wasn't that familiar with sushi, and so am i.. the food was great and i stayed over at nel's place that day..

the next day, we went to puchong tesco to redeem nel's petrol subsidi (eja cam tu ke?? lantaklah..) and guess what.. we had sushi again?? haha.. ongie n nel sudah gila makan sushi la pulak..

ongie + nel

pinggan2 n chopstick

ok enough bout sushi, back in uni.. arghh.. i just hate uni so much.. but too bad lah.. nk study punya pasal.. sabar je la..

woke up early today for class but when i nearly reach class, i got a msg saying that class cancel la pulak... hampeh tul.. so i had breakfast with classmates first before i sambung my beauty sleep hehe.. woke up at 4 for tennis with idham, didi and gemok.. to tell u the truth, i suck la main tennis.. haha but lantaklah.. nk exercise konon2 la.. after tennis, lepak at rumah sewa and played transformers collectors' monopoly.. 4 of us playing which was me, didi, zam and skem.. it was fun at the beginning till i keep losing and have to gadai all my tanah.. thanks to my suwei punya bumblebee, i'm the first one to declare bankrupcy..

bumblebee yg sgt suwei

okla.. enough for tonight.. ngantukla.. class starts at 10 and i'm still awake.. tido la!!

welcome me

2008-02-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

well, hello me.. my first and only post on blogspot.. i'd never imagine myself doing a blog like this.. well, this blog is a substitution for a diary except that they are in a web page.. not to say that i love to write everything that happened to me and around me but i think that having a blog is a good thing as this can help me to recall every moment of my life and bla bla bla.. basically, i'm creating this blog is just to share my thoughts though they're not that brilliant after all but who cares anyway?? heehee.. till then.. hello me again!